More Selfish with Age?

As a child and growing adult, you believe things will change as you get older; you think you will be more wise and grateful for life. You think you will make better decisions and react with more dignity. You believe that you will be a better person; more kind and caring and less abrupt and selfish.

I wished this for my own life and hoped that as I aged I would grow to become the best person I can be. I think we are who we are but we continually learn how to interact with friends, family and society in general; we learn how to live in our world. We grow and learn every day of our life...

I hoped I would grow and lose some of the selfish qualities I had acquired over the years. However, I feel like I am still in a place that I wished I would be far from now. I am not sure how I feel about this and as I come to a new stage in my life, I worry how I will react to the inevitable changes and curves that life will throw my way.

Of course I still have a lot to learn and will never be finished growing as an individual but I know I have evolved and truly like who I am as an individual and as a wife. While I feel like I have finally arrived to a new level of life and should be able to continue on, there is still something holding me back. I feel like I am holding on to some selfish aspects but unfortunately cannot let them go... and I don't know if this is going to stunt my growth or if it will help me grow and learn.

I know I have come to another fork in my road; where one way will take me to the best place for this period of my life, and where the other way will take me to a place that may be harder but where I will learn a lot more about myself. Either way, I know that I have to stand up for what I believe in and even though it may be selfish, I think it is what I need to do at this point in my life.

I think...

Peaches,the Munchkin

We are pretty sure that our little Peaches is some sort of interesting cat breed because she is still soooooooo tiny! Winslow is only a little over 7 months old and is already bigger than Peaches who turned 2 years old about 4 months ago! We looked up some breeds and think she may actually be a Munchkin! It is an actual type of cat and she looks pretty close... we're going to continue to research but in the meantime, Munchkin seems to be a fitting nickname. =)

Isn't she beautiful!?!

Krystal... Oh, how I am torn!!!

I haven't called yet... but I will! I like to use my feelings to my benefit but in this case, it was a much better idea to wait a week or two. Ha! I cannot even begin to explain how majorly disappointed and EXTREMELY PISSED I was last Friday afternoon. Oh my...

My mother-in-law got all of us tickets to see Chelsea Handler!!! So, Jon and I rushed from work and I mean, I was downtown by 5:10 pm which is EXCEPTIONAL and we were on our way. It took us 2 hours to get half an hour away from our destination after the sickening traffic we had known would be our demise; however, we planned for this and dinner while also fulfilling a special request. Hehe. Oh yeah.

I have been waiting for a Krystal hamburger for years. I had my last one when they finally came to my home town and Dad treated me their awesomeness. Unfortunately, there are no locations anywhere near me but to my excitement, we were going to pass one on our way to see the show! I was SO frikin' excited because it was the perfect solution to our extremely tight schedule, need for dinner, and end to my Krystal's attack! The show stared at 8pm but Jon didn't get off until 5pm. What could we do? Well, we could get us some good ole Krystal hamburgers to eat on the way to the show! Mmmm mmmmm!

Things started to go sour at this point... we get there and are about to drool all over the place but can't find the Krystal building. We drove around and then again until we realized that there is a building with the iconic red and yellow, just no signage what-so-ever. Yep... they were closed. Every sign was gone and they were boarded up. I could even see the sun markings from where the name sign had been plastered. OMG. It was not a pretty sight and I was pissed.

Unfortunately, we couldn't drive to the other location on the other side of the city because we had to get to the show. Uggg! I had to forfeit my beloved Krystal Hamburgers and will never forgive myself. Also, however, I am not sure when I will forgive Krystal. Oh, how I want to though! But geeeez, have they ever heard of updating a website? HELLO!!!

None the less, I will be expressing my concern to their management team and it will not be a pleasant experience unless they bend over backwards to make it one. Utterly ridiculous. These frikin' restaurants are in the most random places and when someone has to drive more than 2 hours, there better be a Krystal where their corporate website said there would be!



I am still so pissed...

I Lost The Game

What a bummer! Hehe.

What is The Game, you ask? Well, I won't even try to explain this amazingly crazy idea but I WILL share it with you. I kinda have to... you'll see.

ENJOY!!!!! I one hundred percent agree with the overall idea and think it's pretty darn genius. Just enjoy life...

You Just Never Know

I had an interesting experience the other night which has lead to this blog entry. I think I honestly may have seen one of those crazy UFO things. I know everyone knows someone who has seen a UFO but I am serious. I can't say for certain because I didn't have a camera and it didn't do anything too out of the ordinary. What I can say for certain is that I have never seen an airplane or a helicopter that close that I was not also able to hear.

It seemed like the object was close because the lights were big and it was moving relatively fast; if it wasn't close, that itself would be extremely odd. However, the really weird thing is that the object had absolutely no blinking lights and made absolutely no sound. It wouldn't have seemed strange to me except that I noticed the lights because they were so big and seemingly close and was taken aback because I didn't hear anything before I saw the lights out of the corner of my eye.

Now, I won't get into all of my beliefs because that's a whole other blog but I will say that I am not an idiot and am definitely not an arrogant earthling. We are not alone in the gazillion universes that exist and if we think for one second that we are, we're a lot dumber than I thought.

Look up at the night sky regularly and one day you may be surprised at what you see. =)

The Mysteries of Love

For better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health..." We've all heard these words time and time again; these are words we long to speak to the one person we can call our own, the one person we can love, honor, and cherish until the day we die. I'll always respect my vows to the love of my life; these words are sacred to me and I know that since the moment these words were spoken from my lips, I'll truly honor them until the day of my death.

Here lately, I've been thinking more and more about what it is to love, honor, and cherish as long as you both shall live, and what it really means to love for better... and for worse. My bewilderment of Love's mysterious web began after observing several dramatic chapters of a friend's relationship controversies. The good and the bad, that's for sure!

I'm sitting here contemplating people and love and the way it all works when I should be completing at least one of the five chores I've begun and haven't finished because I've moved onto another activity; I started washing dishes three hours ago. Since then I've gone through photographs, gone to the store for gardening dirt, replanted my Aloe Vera plant, and had one more conversation with my friend who is having some major relationship difficulties. The next thing on my list of 'Things-to-Ponder' came to me as soon as the consoling conversation was over... what the hell could she still see in this jerk-face?

I was just finishing up the Aloe Vera transplant when the conversation first began. The contents of these conversations usually have my blood boiling and my rage slightly roaring by the conclusion, but I've seemed to keep my temper to a minimal, considering my Irish blood. At this point, I can't get upset anymore because only she knows what is best for her life and I for sure know what is best for mine; however, I am still in awe at the way love works as a whole...

While this guy couldn't be the one for her, unfortunately, he is a necessary evil. Every relationship is vital to a person's individual understanding of love; without these love lessons, we wouldn't be prepared for the one relationship that will last forever. Forever ain't no joke; it takes preparation, understanding, patience and one hundred percent commitment. As unfair as it is, all the heartbreaks in our life are necessary; without the mistakes made and lessons learned, we wouldn't have the tools needed to maintain the one relationship that we want to last forever. Each relationship is like a stepping stone for the next relationship and ultimately the final love of your life; each sets you up for the next until you have learned what you needed to make it in the world of love.

This is easy enough to understand, right? But, how do you explain to those forever-searching friends that sometimes they just need to move on? How do you tell them that being unhappy is a sign that you need to make changes to be happy and that if this isn't possible, it may be time to move on to where you can be happy? I have often wondered how to explain to my dearest friends that they'd just know when they had truly found the one, that the search had ended, that the preparation was over and the real fun had actually begun.

How can anyone explain the bizarre phenomenon that is love? It's just plain weird. :)

Our new dawn... and the infamous question.

How would I answer the question, "How's married life?"

I would think of the words of Bella Cullen (aka Stephenie Meyer's words in Breaking Dawn, the last of the Twilight Saga Series)...

"I had found my true place in the world, the place I fit, the place I shinned."

For the present and forever future...

Wasting Time?

Our brief time on this earth and it's all so unknown. It's so strange- we're blind to all and are susceptible to any and everything. We have some control but in the greater scheme of things, we really don't. No matter your religion or lack thereof, you can't deny that anything could happen to anyone at anytime.

I constantly worry and am continuously worrying about worrying. I'll never know when it'll be the last time I see someone I love...

Lately, I've been thinking about how I approach life and how the world approaches life... we should enjoy every second, we should make the most of each and every day... but do we follow through? I'd like to think that the majority of the world lives for today and is blessed by every moment they have on this beautiful earth, but it sure feels like it's slowly slipping away...

Let's change that!

All These Dang Questions...

How do you know which way to go, what to do, how to be?

How do you figure out what's best in life?

Life is a pile of questions upon questions and the answers are never really known.

Weird.